God, my bear & I

On the website of the place I was staying at in Colorado (mentioned in my last blog, The Beginning), it talks about the wildlife you can see all around, and the animals, well birds ;), that interested me the most were the Eagles, they have a couple of huge nests about halfway up the cliff face (see pic. above) and I REALLY wanted to see one while I was there. 

About 7:00 a.m. on day two, I went out in search of a place to enjoy the sunrise, listen to nature, the beautiful scenery and talk with my Father.  I was seeking some clarification of my memories from some questions we were working on the day before, as my answers didn't feel complete to me.

As I was sitting on a bench and waiting, God brought to mind the churches He had placed me in for my growth and learning. Some great, the closest thing to spiritual community I have encountered before now; some not so great, run by “the old guard” doing things “the same way we have always done them”. But through these remembrances He showed me that the story I always considered “our family” story was at times really more specifically “my story”.  This was a sweet revelation to me, of my worth to Him. As I basked in His love and our time was ending I looked up and there was a bear. I very quietly (screaming in my head) said, “That’s a bear! A wild bear! That BEAR COULD EAT ME!!!” It was a black bear, thankfully not a baby (I wouldn’t want to me its momma) but it was an adult black bear! As I tried to turn on the camera, quietly so as not to bother it, it calmly kept walking and ambled on across the grass, away from me! My first response was cool Lord, could I see an eagle this week too!!!! 

I walked back to my room eager to share my bear story, with my roomie Jodi, (a great lady, who we prayed for extensively before I went, Thank You God J) was suitably impressed! She went on to breakfast and I got into the shower before heading over too. While I was in the shower, I heard, “You broke my heart”. I froze as God revealed how I was so eager and excited to tell of the bear but I didn’t think to run back to share my time with Him, how he had spoken to me and what He had revealed, and the weeping began… Soooo, yep I saw a bear and broke God’s heart all before breakfast :/